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Four months into twenty-eleven
26 April, 2011
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Not even half done with 2011 but: what seems like a roller coaster ride for me already. These four months, I had my ups and downs and this time round, I really really mean the feeling of flying to mars and be smashed right down into pits. I will never forget a single moment of those times we spent together for they still seem like a dream to me now and I never wanna wake up from it. It's still a long way to go whenever I imagine what happens within the next four years and I wanna make it all happen like how we already pictured them to be. The remaining four months before the new chapter in life starts for us. And how much changes I'll be ready to make and accommodate when the time comes. I'm sure I'll work doubly hard with work this time even more than those times in poly and juggle my time well enough. Never will I forget who was there when all that happened. After this incident, I've seen and learnt that nothing lasts forever because incidents and issues breaks people up. What are words when we all dont mean them, right? I'll learn to move on from then and to choose words I speak carefully the next time because people remembers them. It takes two hands to clap, it takes two to maintain a friendship that you will consider important in your life should they be silent goodbyes from today then we'll let it end with a perfect fullstop or maybe, like they say, things will only get better in the end, so maybe, the end isn't here yet?Just give me one more blogpost to dwell on it and I promise to not mention about them anymore. =] No matter how much you try to describe your feelings then to somebody, they will never get hundred percent of it because it didnt happened to them. What we said we will do and what eventually we did will always be different. Words, sentences, stories, smses I've read was no doubt hurtful enough and I'll never forget them. Being blamed for taking too long to explain? Whatever we did was wrong from that day onwards, giving a period to cool down and not explain was wrong, wanting to explain later on was wrong. Looking back, which are the friends who truthfully look into your eyes and say: last long? This one issue in life that I'll never forget because I smiled and I cried and repeated those emotions a few cycles, only getting stronger. On the bright side, there are just too many things in life to worry about and to take things one at a time will probably be better for me otherwise, I'll be crushed by them even before I can think of a solution. Besides, everybody handles the situation in a different way. In the end it's hard to please everybody with every action and move you make. It's your life, you live it the way you want it to be because that, defines you as a person in life. Till then! =]
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