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the story that might be left untold
12 March, 2011
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Now that reality sets in, its time I look forward and move on and try my best to make things better. Never did we thought things would turn out this way. Like I said, if nobody gives us a chance to explain I'll be defined as that liar from now on. Throughout the friendship which I took years to build up, I never lied. But for this once, in attempt to make sure things will be fine we lied. And in conclusion, we only made things worse. How can words explain those feelings, those fears, those consideration we had all along. Maybe, its our fault we didn't tell everybody immediately. But, who knew how we felt all along? We wasn't all happy with the way we handled things too. We knew we took too long to say everything but, who bothers to listen and make sure two person standing on one side was enough? And that friendship didn't matter to us? We know everybody cares, everybody wants to know and we all treasure this friendship close to our hearts. Whatever has been done cannot be undone. The words and lies told will be there we know it. Through explanation it will make sense that those lies were made? Because, what will you do if you're in my shoes? Everyone in the clique has the right to be angry about it, but afterall the emotions settled down, will you guys give us a chance to explain? A chance to say, before you guys knew about it. We were close to wanting to leave and never said anything but we knew the day to tell you guys has to come and we braved our courage and told you guys. We didn't expect blessings immediately, we knew all these is gotta take time but will the day for explanation comes where everybody comes together with an open heart and open mind and say everything out? Even if the words are gotta hurt, even if in the process somebody starts to breakdown? It's only till then that, I will know how everybody is feeling. Because, its not only the smiles and laughter that built up the friendship, its about being mad, being disappointed and recovering from them that is going to make something last. I used to make friends just so everybody have fun together, didn't had to consider about so many things but as the years comes and go I see how people left and never came back. I don't want that to happen but, this time isit because of that time we took to tell and that denials we made and when we had the chance to tell everybody individually but we didn't that I'll have to leave? We honestly didn't know what to expect and that explains the fear of being straightforward to everybody. But I guess, like I say no matter how much I explain if nobody listens then I'm alone in this. And, a few breakdowns, a few stay strong from a few other will keep me going. People always say, it is your own opinion that matters, who cares about the others? Well, I do. Because, only with the blessings from you guys can we truthfully tell everybody we love life because we got understanding friends who will always be there. Or, our family rather.
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